Being chased by the black dog is not much fun. Depression is eating away at me... all I want to know is why?? Becoming a hermit, not even communicating with others in the real world or online. The pills just mask it, make each day more tolerable... until, with time, they start to lose their effect. Want to thank people, post artworks, chat to DA friends but just can't. Even typing this is hard enough. Need to regain my lust for life, think more positive thoughts... Have recovered from this in the past and I can do it again!